Because if all this had happened to me, I probably would not have reacted the same way, nor prayed so hard. And the end result would not have been the same. Actually, I'm amazed. I think the "power of prayer" has pretty much been, for the past 10-15 years, something that "happens to someone else". I have been stuck in this rut, where I don't really believe in the power of prayer, and I will offer things up, out of duty, and I offer up my mass for the same intention weekly, and I pray from time to time for the same thing, just in case, you know, it might work, but I don't really put my heart into it, and most of the time I don't pray. If there is one thing that has been "taken away from me" it is my spiritual life. I used to pray, first thing when I got up in the morning, and read the bible. Now, I get up, get the children up, and the prayer in the morning is limited to a hurried blessing as they run out the door to catch the schoo...